Africa, Girl stories

Reality Check…

Suddenly  I am awake. It’s 4:30 am and I still have about 2 hrs of sleep to go. But I am awake. I tossed, turned counted some sheep. But common sense told me it was better to get a cup of tea instead. I reluctantly got off the bed. As I fumbled for the light switch, my eyes caught a blinking light. It was my voice mail. I clicked it and my Dad’s voice serenades my room. I checked the time of the call, it is 2 am. Seriously, Dad, I muttered. My parents were in a different time zone. About 6 hrs ahead but they always seem to call when they feel like.

It is the African in them that just won’t respect time. My mom is worse. Plus she has a lot of time and is prepared to call till your phone drops dead.

I sighed. And looked aroundred-tears-vector-art_152865956 my eerily quiet apartment. From my stance, I could see the skies. And the sun isn’t getting up yet.  I could hear some cars intermittently on the road. But still, it felt quiet and lonely. I sipped my tea thoughtfully as I contemplated getting a dog. They are very loyal, at least. Nah I decided against it. I am not ready for that kind of commitment.

Maybe a boyfriend, it will be nice to hear another breath in this silence. Or a cat. Cats are independent like me. Maybe a husband (my mom’s voice echoes in my mind). “I don’t even care about his nationality”, she had informed me graciously. “Whether if he is Chinese or Indian just as long as you bring a man home”…

Talking about men, I still have a bad taste from the last. And bad taste doesn’t go easy. So in this phase of self-healing, I am apt to stick to the bland taste of single-hood. Hahaha! I love my poetic argument, I should say this to my mom when next she brings this up.

Is it that women don’t want men? Nah. Women want men. Some women just want a specific kind of man. And women with options are even more specific. Good looks are great. Money is OK. Humor? Religion. Name it that list for some is endless. However, for some, it’s those things that money can’t buy. Like character. Empathy. Commitment to self-development and willingness to admit to fault. And don’t forget honesty!

Time to check work emails. No emergency fire to kill. I resigned myself to a laid back day.  I close my eyes…

It’s 6 am now and I am resolved in my decision. This is not checking off another item on my list. This is about the building of a quality life (together).Coverr-flowers

Last year I decided. No more attending weddings of people that are checking off their list. And I  can tell the genuine once…

I remember Mafoluku and the images of marriages that surrounded my childhood. Of couples who barely talk. Of women who rarely saw their husbands, except when it was time for the children. Most people, in fact, stayed together for the kids. And the kids? They were miserable. Of women who comforted themselves with the knowledge that their husbands loved them enough for two. Of couples who were mutually exclusive and were satisfied with taking from the other without giving anything back in return. And my parents who gave too much and still didn’t give enough.

It is human to focus on quantities, not necessarily the quality of life. And I still see it here and out of Mafoluku.

Of stark realities conveniently dressed in fabrics of impressions. Impressions and the momentary proclamations of see, I too have done this. But for me – this yardstick is not enough. I don’t want what most people have. I want what most people want and dream of… That is my reality, the one I am willing to check.

It’s 6:30 am. Time for a shower….

Excerpt from the Girl from Mafoluku by Lina OAK


  1. The firebrand is back! Often looked forward to this period where your enticing quality literature is shared with the world. Thumbs up @linaoak … your no.1 fan since the day I was born into this beautiful world where you are my rare gem sis !


  2. Not sure there’s an appropriate way to appreciate the unism of all your words and the beautiful way it keeps you wanting more
    You’ll do great things. It’s crystal clear 👏🏼👏🏼


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